Nobody Gonna Break Our Stride.
My Worried Workout
This morning I restarted the morning gym routine I had before moving out east. Those who know me know that I'm not (at all) a morning person, so waking up even just an hour before I normally would have to is going to be tough. But it'll be more than worth it. I've been a slacker, big time, in recent months as far as exercising is concerned. I've almost been a complete stranger to my gym, so I figure it's probably time to get my money's worth again.
Stepping back into the place I had apparently temporarily forgotten was a bit daunting this morning, I must admit.
I'm surrounded by all kinds of people who are already fit and thin. I don't really consider myself a part of that group, and sadly I haven't for a few years now.
I worry that when they happen to glance in my direction, they're going to see and even focus in on the chub rolls that (in my own mind and vision) wave on for miles. Although working out in the "Judgement-free Zone," I worry that I'll be judged on how long I stay on the treadmill, and how much of that treadmill time is jogging. I worry that people will see me using the 10-pound free weights and think, "Wow, that's all she can handle?" And I worry that when I use the ab machines, people will see the chub I'm so desperate to get rid of.
In the same breath, though, I'm fully aware of the fact that I need to stop worrying so much about what others are thinking of me. I mean, who cares what that musclehead thinks (or if he thinks at all....) as he's lifting his 200-pound weights while gazing affectionately at himself in the mirror. Who cares what that woman (we've all seen her) who works out in full makeup/hair/jewelry/fancy clothes and in front of the mirrors so she, too, can gaze affectionately at herself thinks? To an extent, I do (obviously).
But regardless, when I'm at the gym, I try to repeat to myself (in my mind, of course) that it doesn't matter what they think because they don't know me from a hole in the wall. And who cares if people notice my spare tire - I'm at the gym to lose weight and get back into shape, right?
And speaking of spare tires, I'm looking for some good, relatively quick ab workouts that I can do at home.... so if you know of any, feel free to share.
I guess it all comes down to the fact that I fully plan to wear a bathing suit this summer and actually be okay wearing in front of other people. How about that.
Stepping back into the place I had apparently temporarily forgotten was a bit daunting this morning, I must admit.
I'm surrounded by all kinds of people who are already fit and thin. I don't really consider myself a part of that group, and sadly I haven't for a few years now.
I worry that when they happen to glance in my direction, they're going to see and even focus in on the chub rolls that (in my own mind and vision) wave on for miles. Although working out in the "Judgement-free Zone," I worry that I'll be judged on how long I stay on the treadmill, and how much of that treadmill time is jogging. I worry that people will see me using the 10-pound free weights and think, "Wow, that's all she can handle?" And I worry that when I use the ab machines, people will see the chub I'm so desperate to get rid of.
In the same breath, though, I'm fully aware of the fact that I need to stop worrying so much about what others are thinking of me. I mean, who cares what that musclehead thinks (or if he thinks at all....) as he's lifting his 200-pound weights while gazing affectionately at himself in the mirror. Who cares what that woman (we've all seen her) who works out in full makeup/hair/jewelry/fancy clothes and in front of the mirrors so she, too, can gaze affectionately at herself thinks? To an extent, I do (obviously).
But regardless, when I'm at the gym, I try to repeat to myself (in my mind, of course) that it doesn't matter what they think because they don't know me from a hole in the wall. And who cares if people notice my spare tire - I'm at the gym to lose weight and get back into shape, right?
And speaking of spare tires, I'm looking for some good, relatively quick ab workouts that I can do at home.... so if you know of any, feel free to share.
I guess it all comes down to the fact that I fully plan to wear a bathing suit this summer and actually be okay wearing in front of other people. How about that.
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